I hate my Job.

Working at Froggy's is actually pretty easy.. although there's no way that I'd want to work there for the rest of my life. I think I'd rather be a single mom on Welfare than work at Froggy's forever. It would just suck really bad.
I hate dealing with all of the crazy people that go crazy about their food, it stresses me out. But from working there it's taught me not to mess with people that are making your food...
It's also showed me how incredibly bad fryer food is for you. After making french fries, and chicken fingers and blah blah blah everyday, and seeing then soak in the grease forever, it makes me not want to eat fried foods anymore which is a good thing.
Another thing that I would hate to do for the rest of my life, which is just a chore I have to do at home would be empyting the dishwasher. I HATE doing that..
I guess it's better than actually doing dishes then putting them away and everything but still whenever my mom tells me to empty the dishwasher I completely dread doing it.

Beloved Toy..

In Bloomington there's a toystore called the Gingerbread house, which is in an actual old house, just made into a toystore, and when I was little it was my favorite place to go. Even if I wasn't getting anything it was like the biggest treat to me to go look around at everything there.

One of the coolest parts was the Hello Kitty wall. There was a wall competely dedicated to Hello Kitty with about everything you could imagine, and when I was good my mom would get me something little from it.

But the best part of the Gingerbread house for me was the babydoll room. They had really realistic babydolls that I loved, but they were also really expensive, and even though I knew that they were too much money, I always wanted one.

There was a certain one that I had wanted forever, and whenever we would go to the Gingerbread House the first thing I would do was go get that babydoll and carry it around with me untill we left, but my mom always reminded me that it was too much money.

That year for Christmas the last present that I opened was that babydoll, and I remembered that I was SO proud that I was such a good girl that year because Santa finally got me that doll.

Dear Kiddo

Coming from a 16 year old who hates being around her parents, and can't WAIT to get out of the house, I wish my parents wouldn't be so strict and would let me do whatever I wanted to. I always say, when I have kids, I'm going to let them do whatever they want, just make sure that they are safe, but in all reality I think once you REALLY have kids, that motherly instinct takes over...

I'm not going to be overly protective and strict with my kids, and I'll let them have freedom, just as long as they don't ruin my trust.

I know that I've ruined my parents trust, and it just kind of screws everything over..

I want my child to make good choices, yet know that they have to try new things, and make mistakes to learn from. If they screw up, I'd rather have them come and tell me about it, instead of hearing it through the grapevine, if they come out and tell me, in a sense it will gain my trust even more.

I want them to be able to talk to me about things. Some things that they do as teenagers might scare me, but I'd much rather know what their doing instead of them hiding it from me.

My mom, always makes it seem like I can come to her with anything and talk to her about anything, but when I actually DO it, she goes nuts and doesn't take it the way that she says she will. I want my kids to look at me as someone that they can come and talk to about problems, but then again they will have to know that I'm still the one in charge and I make the rules.

I know my Mom hates nothing more than when I try to tell her what to do, and when I think that I make the rules. And yeah I can understand why.



I'd want my kids to know that as a kid, I wasn't perfect, at all. I didn't follow the rules, and if I was told not to do something, it made me want to do it more..

So it's not going to suprize me if they do the same thing, but they do need to know that since I was in their shoes once, I know all the lies and tricks to get around rules.

If they just tell me whats going on, I'm not going to have to worry, and think of all these images in my mind of what their doing, if they justtt tell me.

If I wouldn't have wakend

I think my coolest dreams happen durring that time when I'm just about to wake up, so I'm still sleeping but not very hard. It's easier to remember them too that way, because a lot of times, I know that I had a dream, but I can't think of what it was, and I absolutly hate that, because I like telling people about my dreams.

But anways. One time I had a dream that I was a famous singer and I was singing at my own concert..

It might sound kind of stupid, but it felt SO real to me. Sometimes dreams kind of jump around and don't make much sense, but this dream, I remembered every little detail and it was so realistic.

It started out that I was backstage, and I could hear everyone yelling and screaming for me to come out, and when I made my first apperance it was dark, then there was a huge light show and everything. And I can remember I was amazed at how many people were in the crowd, but since I was a famous singer.. I wasn't nervous at all.

In the middle of singing my first song, my alarm clock woke me up, and after I turned if off, I even tried going back to sleep so I could return to my dream cause it was so awesome, but it didn't really work.

But on the other hand, another dream that I had that felt SO real, wasn't a happy one.

It was kind of weird, and everything didn't make complete sense, but I was going to die, almost like I already had, but I was watching myself prepare for my own death. Like, my mom was getting out old photo albums to show me pictures of myself, and asking where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do before I died. Then I was even with her when she picked out my coffin, then I attended my own funeral. It was really crazy, and I even woke up actually crying from the dream.